What if Taoyu jumped one last time?

A reimagining of the ending of "Vaulting the Sea" by Xuan Juliana Wang Taoyu would look back on that moment nearly every day for too long. What if he just didn’t jump. Would staying put have been better than jumping poorly? But then what would have happened to Hai? His life would be ruined. He be a failure just like Taoyu. But now Taoyu is just another bad diver. His training was never enough. His friendship was never enough. Taoyu’s perverted mind just wanted more. More than friends. Now they are less than friends. Less than acquaintances. Hai will probably never to to Taoyu again. And it’s all Taoyu’s fault. His distracting from his life, from diving. His fault for leaving his mother to die. His fault for leaving his team to lose. His team lost gold because Hai and Taoyu’s jump was anything but in sync. Taoyu was kicked off the team. There was no question about it. Everyone knew Taoyu failed. He had no one to blame but himself. On his way back home. Not ...